Merry Christmas!

i hope that everyone's Christmas has been wonderful. i've spent most of the day being with my family. i've realized that no matter how long or hard a year it has been, whenever Christmas comes around things may become more stressful buying those few last gifts, wrapping them or decorating the house, but in the end there's something about Christmas that brings a family together. whether it be cooking in the kitchen, playing cards around the table or creating new traditions. sometimes people lose the value of what Christmas really means, that it's just one day of the year where they get to open presents. although i;m not sure why we get presents when it's Jesus's birthday, this day means so much more. i heard this song and here's the lyrics to it because i thought it was a sweet reminder of what today really means:

 What if ribbons and bows didn't mean a thing?

Would the song still survive without five golden rings?

Would you still wanna kiss without a misletoe?

What would happen if God never let it snow?

What would happen if Christmas carols told a lie?

Tell me what would you find

You'd see that today holds something special,

Something holy, not superficial,

So here's to the birthday boy who saved our lives.

It's something we all try to ignore,

And put a wreath up on your door,

So here's something you should know that is for sure

Christmas must be something more.

What if angels did not pay attention to

All the things that we wished they would always do,

What if happiness came in a cardboard box?

Then I think there is something we all forgot.

What would happen if presents all went away?

Tell me what would you find

You'd see that today holds something special,

Something holy, not superficial,

So here's to the birthday boy who saved our lives.

It's something we all try to ignore,

And put a wreath up on your door,

So here's something you should know that is for sure

Christmas must be something more.

We get so caught up in all of it

Business and relationships

Hundred mile an hour lives

And it's this time of year

And everybody's here

It seems the last thing on your mind

Is that the day holds something special

Something holy, not superficial

So here's to Jesus Christ who saved our lives

It's something we all try to ignore

And put a wreath up on your door

But here's something you should know that is for sure

Christmas must be something more.

life comes at you fast:

so you should get heart insurance. it's this new thing i thought of today. if i had heart insurance, when i became broken hearted, i could just be payed to not have the hurt anymore. if it was my fault, i'd have to pay, or however insurance works. i haven't fully thought this plan out, it's more of an idea in my head that makes sense in my mind. it seems like just yesterday, oh wait, it was yesterday, when this guy just texted me and pretty much broke apart anything we could have had. i mean, it's probably for the better, so i know i need to let it go. it seems around each Christmas since 8th grade, i've been hurt by some guy who doesn't even need to matter to me, but he did at the time.

singing:

i knew i could make her sing. we have such pretty voices. :)       

hmm:

i still haven't quite figured out the purpose of having blog, but i've generally been using it was an online diary that people can read. which is kinda weird now that i think about it. anyways, it doesn't matter, i doubt many people read it anyways. i just like having a way of getting my feelings and thoughts out and written down so they don't tear me up. so. i like somebody and he makes me happy. things still haven't taken off, which is good. i'm all up for going slow because there's no way i'm ready for another relationship right now (and the fact that i'm not allowed to date until my birthday.) i feel like i'm constantly going from one guy to another, but i'm really not. time passes by and i just start liking someone new and there's nothing really wrong with that. i'm not so focused on finding my soul mate or anything, i mean, i'm in high school and with the school i go to, i sure hope my mr. right doesn't go there. i think high school sweethearts are adorable and everything, but i've noticed they have the highest divorce rate too. all i really want is my mr. right now and i'm okay with that. 

taking it as it comes:

there's two weeks until Christmas break, so i'm just kinda waiting and going along taking life as it comes. i've started listening to Christmas music now, but it still feels so weird to know Christmas is so soon. i feel like time has been fast forwarded and i'm just now realizing it. the cold weather just keeps coming, it even snowed recently. i forgot how much i loved seeing it snow. it's so pretty and white. when it covers the ground, everything seems so at peace and quiet. i hate how when Christmas comes around and people say "happy holidays" instead of "merry Christmas." it's called Christmas for a reason, so people should say "merry Christmas." in school, it's always holiday break, not Christmas break. for those people who say that "merry Christmas" offends them, well "happy holidays" offends me. i don't really know what else to say about it, i just had it on my mind recently. anyways. i'm going to start trying to update more often, because i haven't really been doing that. i was listening to the radio and i heard these lyrics "life's a game, but it's not fair" and it just made me think. because life is a game, it's full of making decisions for your next move, but in the game of life, you don't always get what you deserved. "if the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off." i laugh at that everytime i hear it. at the moment, life doesn't suck. :)

letting go:

so it's been officially two weeks since we broke up and i'm completely back to my normal, clumsy self. speaking of which, i ran into a door a couple days ago and now have a bruise on my elbow that still hurts. anyways. i know that i've mentioned before how music helps me cope, but so do my friends. it's incredible how much having a best friend to talk to about things helps with everything. i can go on and on about a guy and she'll still listen to me because i do the same for her. i just wanted to make a list of some songs or lyrics that have helped me get over a breakup in record time because i feel like somewhere i just might be helping someone who is going through the same thing. "already gone" (kelly clarkson) i love you enough to let you go, "consider me gone" (reba mcentire) consider me a memory, consider me the past, consider me a smile in an old photograph, someone who used to make you laugh, "not meant to be" (theory of a dead man), "that's what faith can do" (kutless) i've seen dreams that move the mountains, hope that doesn't ever end even when the sky is falling, i've seen miracles just happen, silent prayers get answered, broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do. there's others too, but i can't remember them right now. so far it's nice being single, being free. i like being able to say or think "oh! he's cute!" without feeling guilty and i haven't actually had a crush in a while either. actually, it kinda feels like being in third grade when people would say "i like you" and it's just like a constant flashback in time, but i like it. who knows how long that'll last though. haha.